It's been a while since I last posted. I had nothing new to say. Oh, I did join a group called the Nesters, I guess you could say I have an empty nest. My status hasn't changed, still single, widowed, retired, unemployed, not completely helpless (at least I keep telling myself that.). There are times when the quiet is nice, no tv, just the clocks ticking, the sound of the key strokes as I type. But that can also be lonesome, needing to talk to another adult, have adult conversations. Oh sure, I talk to my cats, and sometimes they talk back. We get into some hellasious arguments come dinner time, they don't always win. I only keep them around because they're such good mouse catchers and I live out in the country, keeps mice out of the house. There is only one other thing that makes my skin crawl and that is snakes. Why do I live out in the country? Because we have 12 acres of beautiful ground, my husband loved it out here and I feel close to him here. But it's been over two years now that he passed away, and I'm starting to feel that I can let go. I guess it scares me to think about moving, my niece asked me the other day what stuff I would sell. I told her I would probably auction everything and just go with my clothes. But now that I think about it more, I will take my sewing machine with me.
I will be 59 years old next month. I don't feel old, especially when they keep throwing it at me that I'm too young for social security. I'm living on a tight budget and I hate it. I used to have a good paying factory job, but the plant closed down and they retired me with my pension. I know I'm thankful I did have my 30 years into that factory so that I was able to collect that. But a few years ago, my husband was still alive and we were looking forward to my retirement to grow old together. I now have an empty nest and I'm not liking it much most of the time. One good thing, since we were looking forward to me retiring, I had started collecting tubs of fabric so that I would have some quilting material when I retired. I have enough crafts to keep me busy, from knitting & crocheting, to basket making, quilting, machine embroidery and even clay molding. All I have to do is "look" for it. I have alot of it boxed up and put away for when I retired and wanted something to do. Now I also have to mow 7 of the 12 acres almost once a week. So that keeps me busy in the summer. I haven't planted flowers in a few years, I just wasn't outside that much, except for mowing lawn. I guess not having many visitors, it didn't matter anyways if I decorated the house. I'm sure neighbors think I'm an eccentric old lady, but I'm really not that old. I need a new life!
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